Thoughts Written Out

I really don't know what to think anymore. I mean, this girl is driving me insane (its cliched to say-- I know), and i can't stop thinking about how I'll likely fuck this up. If I do, does that mean i revert back into the comfort zone or do I branch out a little more? The odd thing is, even though I feel the way I feel, I still end up finding myself in situations that could land me in hot water..... or will it? See?! I don't know!

Is it shame? I think its fear. Probably fear.

I'm lining myself up to become broken. I've always believed it only builds more character and in turn you become a better person for it, but I underestimated how painful it would be.

The positive spin is how all of whats going on in my life now is sparking more and more creativity. It could be my growth as a human being. It could be my departure from certain aspects of my life. Clear and sober or high up my tree, its difficult for me not to be filled with words and ideas and emotions etc.... etc... etc..

Peace&Love