Time Will Tell

What an awful expression. Its so bland and abrupt. What will time tell? No one knows really. I bet it couldn't tell someone they were sorry. I think time is against us all, and its not something people are getting. I mean, as much as you like to think time passes when you are away, everything stays the same... within reason. If the people that matter to you the most stick around then they are the constants in life that so many of us desire. But does one really desire to be that constant? Wouldn't we all rather be the spontaneous? The free spirited soul that makes rash decisions. No one wants to be a stick in the mud.
Regardless of who you've become or who you want to be, home remains universal. Home is what everyone has expectations of. Otherwise, life would not entail risk and people would not have memories.

I Miss You

To see you
When I wake up
Is a gift
I didn't think could be real

To know that you feel the same
As I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream

You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line
If I said
I miss you

I see your picture
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine

You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care
And I miss you

for the rest of us....

Festivus, the age-old tradition that has evolved into the cash-cow consumer crack-pot creating consistent client-craze. I mean, its not everyday that people literally die for that great gift. No matter who you are, you've given in, and you should prepare yourself to be subject to another year of buildup and anticipation. Nevertheless, we will continue to live our lives as drones and leave reality by the wayside.... for the rest of us.

The Elegance of Consequence.

Paralysis. Utter shock and disbelief. The familiarity of disappointment. The hospitality of the desperate. Complete judgment from the ignorant but not the ignored. Unsimplified motives changing human interaction. Snare, bass, snare. Paralysis.

Solitaire

It always seems to happen this way... at first it was 1 week, the next was 2. Both were tough, for different reasons, and in hindsight it seems a little unreasonable for certain people. But the toughest thing I'll ever be forced to endure is this next one. The person who has become a big part of my day-to-day, something I've only let happen to a very small degree once before, is leaving for 2 months.

There is only so much time before she leaves. I have a few weeks before she's out of my reach. i won't be able to touch her face and hear her voice. I guess this is the relationship's first down, it was bound to happy but it won't change us, i know that.

Tarnished

In the weeks leading to the most merry day of the year, I feel, sunken. That's a decent way to describe how it feels. I mean, I'm exhausted from my new job, and the bridges from the previous one have been all but burned... I got my relève d'emploi in the mail today... its cool I guess. Its just another way to look back at all the things that I've done...

Help me out yeah
You know you gotta help me out
Don't you put me on the back burner...

Time Lapse

Its been a while, I'll admit... I just haven't been able to get time to do this. I mean, its not like I have all the time in the world right now, but its nice to get this off my head. Since the last time I blogged, Barack Obama has become President-Elect, I've tripped out on shrooms, and found myself a new job. There are some other things too but I don't necessarily want to jinx them. I'll be heading to Costa Rica in February, it'll be another one of those signature adventures with Danny, I cannot wait.